Normally, at about this time, I'm starting to go over the QA that I was unable to do over the weekend. My weekends are usually pretty busy and something always comes up that prevents me from getting much done. So, late Sunday night, I get a start on Thursday or Friday's QA. I'd go through it a bit, then put it off for juuuuust one more day. After all, one more day won't really make that much of a difference, will it? If the next day is a payday, then of course I'm up all night getting it all done so that I can just do one day's worth of QA on Monday, upload, mark complete, then sit back and wait for pay problems.
I've been without a project for well over a week and a half now. To say that I am going nuts is an understatement. Don't get me wrong, I still have my other jobs. The resume reviewing puts me to sleep several times each day. The other job, I am only able to work 8 hours each day, 40 hours each week.
I am trying hard to learn the concept of 'relaxing.' I don't think that I'm quite there yet. For me, relaxing is going 90 miles an hour instead of 120 miles and hour. Relaxing for me consists of being busy every waking moment. If I haven't accomplished something every moment of the day, then the day was wasted. To me, that is relaxing.
I tried meditation. 20 minutes and 4 cigarettes later, I realized I must be doing something wrong. After all, I had reached no higher state of consciousness, and accomplished nothing but a sore throat and making my cough even worse. Yeah. Good job!
I tried spring cleaning, again. But really, there is only so much spring cleaning you can do before you wind up making more of a mess of things because, in your quest for cleanliness and order, you wind up making things much more disorganized. Yeah. I tried spring cleaning. Now I can't find most of the things that I need.
Netflix and I are developing a nice, close, personal relationship. But really, that isn't going to last long either. There is only so many movies or old tv shows you can watch before you realize your brain is really turning into mush. Hell, after just one day of it, I can feel my brain losing valuable brain cells!
I've tried playing video games, but how many level 85 characters does one really need in World of Warcraft? And what in the world is one actually accomplishing? YAY! I got level 85! When's the next expansion coming out? How does it benefit you in the real world?
I admit that I have a problem, a very serious problem. I like to work. Working is my hobby. Without it, I'm just as lost and confused as the person that loses the only job that they have, or just as lost and confused as the person that loses the ability to perform their one main hobby. "Hey, I'm sorry that the shark bit your legs off, but I'm sure you can find another hobby you love just as much as surfing!"
Okay, maybe that's a bit melodramatic, but all the same, it feels as though my legs were bitten off. Bottom line is, I need to find a hobby. I need something that can fill my waking hours, give me something to dream about as I sleep, and give me that sense of accomplishment each moment of the day that I crave.
My husband suggested quilting. I told him that he had our roles reversed again.
Well, it's time go to bed now. Here's to all of us finding our legs again!
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