Change is Good...

It's how we handle that change that has potential for bad. Or at least, that's what I've been telling myself all evening.

All of my jobs are in the work at home industry. Now, any person that works in this industry knows that there is no such thing as job security, especially as an independant contractor. Anything can, and often does, happen. That's why so many home workers have more than one job. They have their main job, and then they have their "Oh crap!" job/s. These are the ones that tide you over if you lose one or the other.

There is a major change coming with one of the companies I work with. Now for the most part, most of the people there won't be affected hardly at all. They'll have to sign some new tax paperwork, and then keep on moving. My particular position though, we don't know what's going to happen to it.

For a short while at least, nothing will change at all. Then, in the next month or two, my job could change drastically, or disappear altogether, or not change at all. We just don't know. I may be earning more money, less money, or no money at all.

I am feeling such a mixed bag of emotions right now. The very first was intense confusion. And of course, not many answers could be given to me because the person filling us in didn't have many answers themselves. Then it went to utter panic. I love doing what I do. If I can't do it here anymore, where will I go to do it? Then it was anger. I've invested so much of myself, my money, etc. I've worked so hard to try to earn advances and promotions, to build a great reputation and relationship. And now, it may have been for nothing. Maybe.

Now Honey and I are hoping for the best, preparing for the worst. Half of our animals will be gone this weekend. We're taking them up to Wal Mart this weekend. Yes, we're going to be those people. But we have to drastically cut our expenses and fast so that we can save up money. We may be getting rid of our satelite television company, as well as our gym membership, and Netflix. We're keeping the toll free line, but may be downgrading the cell phone service.

The name of the game right now is save save save! We need to build up our savings account as much as we can in the next month or two just in case. If it winds up being the best case scenario, then we have money towards my car. If it winds up being the worst case scenario, then we have money saved up to help with expenses until the income is replaced.

Now, for the most part, everyone else's jobs are fine. I wish I could speak more about what is going on, which company, etc. I can't. But, I can say that for most everyone else, this is a great thing, a truly fantastic thing. Just... don't know yet if it will be for me as well or not.

Anyway, change is good! It's how we handle that change that could make it a negative thing. Maybe this is life's way of telling me to slow down a bit now. Either way, good things will come from here on out!